This painting came in March of 2012, during a time when I was diving more deeply into the seeming dichotomy between the spiritual wisdom of my long term yogic life style and my deeply watery and sensual leanings. I was still in the early phase of shifting my way of working with women in my Yoga Nidra practice, developing a specialty called Yoni Yoga Nidra, helping them to develop their Brain-Body-Yoni Connection utilizing Yoni Yoga and Yoni Meditations. Even though we were removing energetic and creative blocks, and healing some long held trauma’s from childhood or early romantic involvements, I was still feeling discomfort arising in myself each time I began directing my clients to dive more deeply into their unique feminine anatomy.
I received my yoga training in an Ashram with a very long and refined relationship with Bramacharya as abstinence from sensual influence and sexual pleasure. I never bought into that part of my training and always felt like I lived on the outskirts of town, so to speak. Now, altering the sacred practice of Yoga Nidra to help woman reclaim their creative expression, physical and emotional vitality, and sensual presence, I was deliberately moving into an area that was classically off limits. I was also aware that I was consciously placing myself in a position where unpleasant criticism might flow my way.
Then one day I was listening to my meditation teacher while doing my somatic practice when a flash, like lightening, came into my minds eye. It felt like the energy of my spirit, animated by my yogic wisdom, and my sensual leanings, cultivated by actively living through my senses, combining in a potent sense of new understanding. It felt like a new structure and commitment of collaboration by these two aspects of myself and my empathic nature, were settling into a place of refuge together.
I don’t think there is any surprise that the colors are what they are, or that it resembles the opening of a Yoni, with the purple labia’s on either side.
When you look at the painting, how or where in your body do you feel your experience of it?
How do your sensual leanings and your wisdom practice inform one another?
They do, and become even more profound, synergistically, when we allow them a free flow of exchange.